I'm bored of LJ and blogger is cuter. So bye LJ hello: www.laf-out-loud.blogspot.com

My mom moved out last Sunday. Sorry I didn't tell you, I just don't want to talk about. I'd rather cope by myself...thats just how I am.

In good news, my graduation gift is a kitten. Its a while from now but I'm excited. I miss Mischief more then anything else. Also, I'm getting a Sony Vaio and a verizon Voyager, I'm buying those myself. I also got front row seats to see Celine at a third show. Okay...second row..but I'm selling them to upgrade to front row. Don't ask me where I got all of this money haha lets just call it retail therapy.

I'm proud of myself because I raised $500 so far for Relay for Life. For Barefoot we are raising money for children's miracle network and I've raised $600 for that so far. If I raise $1000 I get to be on the telethon WHIPEE haha. 

Job updates:
I'm graduating in May but I have to take an internship for credit so heres where I'm applying-Sony BMG (A friend from work (bogeys) knows the VP and is going to give him my resume oooo), Capitol Music Group, Viacom (mtv, vh1, etc), AEG Live: Concerts West (they do promo for major concert tours)...and yeah I don't know what else. It's tough because I know these are all HUGE places and the competition to work at any of these is REALLY intense, but I feel like I have a good amount of experience. I want to apply to smaller places just in case...but not yet.  I feel like this semester will really help because its a lot of hands on stuff. 

Well thats life in a nutshell right now.

As I was just sitting here watching the final episode of friends (once again) my eyes were tearing up out of jealously and sadness. It made me think, why is it the only time I cry lately is because something fictional or just out of pure envy over someone I don't even know? My friends at school even keep asking me why it is that I can just shrug off all the bad things.I realized finally, that I have such unrealistic expections for life and love. Theres no such thing as a relationship like Ross and Rachels or like what you see on TV. Whats real is divorce, heartbreak, and maybe the rare happy ending. Here I was though, always thinking that I would be the 1 in million person to get that fairytale ending when my own parents can't even do it.  And Celine. Of course theres the obvious reasons I like her, but she is one of those 1 in million people and that could be a part of the reason I am so envious of her. I guess its just disappointing when you finally wake up and realize that life is no where near what you wish it would be. I'm not depressed, its just hard to take in. Maybe its because I'm graduating soon, or because my parents haven't talked in four years...but I guess I finally woke up from that dream I've been trying to live in.

 

Homecoming is over so things should finally be slowing down....I think? South Carolina was pretty amazing and I am dying to go to St. Louis to see all the work we put into naca nationals :(. 

My sister came down for the weekend last week. We had a good time, I just felt a little bad because I was pretty sick the whole time. For the past two weeks I've had the worst ear ache. At first it was so painful I was crying so I went to the doctors and they gave me meds. I'm almost all out of them and I still can't hear out of that ear. I'll die if it doens't come back. ...Not really but I'll be mighty upset.

 I starting to worry about my event. We are working on getting a headliner and a lot of the headliners we tried to get were way too expensive. If I had a vote we'd be getting one republic but I don't...and now they are blowing up. Shittay. I'm pretty confident in whatever band we get though because my committee is the friggen best and so is my booking agency. SO THERE!

Ummm what else is new. I'm going to Atlantic City with my whole family for thanksgiving. Yeah, thats what you get for thanksgiving when your family is a bunch of alchoholics/gambling addicts. I'm excited though it will be like a mini vegas without the celine. I'm even getting to go home that weekend from friday until monday SO we must hang out. CLEAR YOUR SCHEDULES.

Alright I have 5 tests next week...so I need to get on that. So much for slowing down I guess.

I've been soooo busy and its catching up to me. Lucky for me this weekend I have a mini vacay in SC for Student Union. Okay...so its like work cause I have to go to meetings and stuff but it should be nice to get out of this town for a few days.
Typical me, always biting off more then I can chew. Barefoot, the concert I'm in charge of, is already getting me stressed. We are about to pick the headliner so that will take a little weight off my shoulders. I have to make over 200 sponsorship packets to mail out...its insane. Lucky for me I have one of the few dedicated committees thank GOODNESS for them. Barefoot has this reputation for booking these bands that blow up right after the event so I feel verrrrrrryy pressured. Case in point, Plain White T's. God only knows why they blew up but they did. John Mayer, and Jason Mraz....two others that got HUUUGE after they played this show. A lot of people are talking about Boys Like Girls this year...I'm not a fan of the pop/punk shit...but if thats what a lot of people want thats what I get. 
On top of my committee I'm still a part of 4 of the other committees in student union cause I'm stupid and I can't get enough. This gives me at least 5 meetings every week plus events. Its no ones fault but my own but I love it.
On top of thhhhat I'm the team captain for Student Union's relay for life team so I'm planning all these fundraiser events and e-mailing out of my ass to get donations. People aren't very generous. So far though I've raised 260. I've realized by doing all this that I might want to do something for a non-profit organization when I graduate...but then again I REAAALLy want to work in the music industry. :/ Its all so confusing. Weeeeeelll if you want to help and donate I would love you forever even if its a doller. Go here to do so: main.acsevents.org/goto/lfrench
Thanks thanks and thanks.
On top of THAT I'm in PRSSA which is pretty much required for any pr major that wants a half decent job. I need it for networking I guess. I have to do all this community service for this too. I feel good about it but its overwhelming.

Oh yea, and theres that thing called class. Shocker that I'm actually keeping up with my work. Actually, I should be studying right now for exam so I can get to bed at a half decent hour. By half decent I mean 3am. Thats early for me.

I don't know about this NYC trip anymore. I have noooo money. I can barely work at the library cause of all this shit I  might even ask her to cut my hours. Luckily I get paid for SU but not much. Hopefully all this work will be worth it in the end. 

I want to go to EUROPE after graduation and I will find a way to go. If europe doesn't happen montreal will. Seriously. Hah right.

I'm extremeley happy these days. I feel accomplished even though I'm stressed. 21 has been the best year of my life so far. Starting with las vegas of course! I've realized that I dont need anyone else to make me happy that its all about being happy with myself. I think thats an important life lesson. I don't need no man! Haha.If I have friends and  family that I love and a job that I love what more do I really need right? Except mischief. I really miss him. :(

So I think I'm going to try and update on here about once a week. We'll see. 

Anyway Las Vegas was amazing, great start tothe 21st year of my life. :) Celine of course was amazing. The was the best three hours of my life, no joke. That show was amazing and I'd suggest going to see it right now!  I have pics from the trip on my facebook and I'm way too lazy to post on here soo go look for yourself.

The school year has been great great great so far. I'm in charge of planning the biggest concert on campus. Cool stuff. I'm going on two trips to South Carolina for this thing called NACA, the second is supposed to be top secret lol so don't tell anyone. I guess cause I'm on the selection committee (there's 10 of us picked from the whole country!) and they don't want any bands e-mailing to sway my vote haha. They're paying to fly me down there and everything! WOOHOO Umm what else what else. My "business" is going good. We are working together with our friend's booking company so things are actually going to start happening soon. HMMMMM

I went to some shows already. I saw the format which was hot as hell but good. Last night I saw mandy moore and rachael yamagata which was a greeeaaat show. It was in myrtle beach too so that was fun. I know I know sounds lame...Mandy Moore...but she has this new indish vibe to her music and its awesome. Oooo and I met her:

Preeeeettty cool. She looks pissed but she was so nice. I met Rachael Yamagata too but the pic sucks haha.

 

Things are going pretty great um school wise. I'm graduating in may so yay. I'm going to NYC in November..which yeah not a big deal cause I live in Jersey buuuuuut its for a Student Union trip and we get to stay at a hotel and everything for a week for like 300 bucks and when we get there we can do whatever we want. So you guys should all come for a night and meet my school friends cause I love them to death and so will you. 

Although I'm having a lot of luck with materialistic things, things at home with my family suck real bad...I'd rather not talk about it.

Tomorrow is the last day of summer session one. Well, at least for one of my courses. I should be doing my final project but no, I will post on here instead. This project is l a m e. Not my thing. Its on Crisis communication. I have to write some bullshit about burt's bee's and how all the bee's are dying. WHAT A CRISIS! I don't care about bee's! Haha. If I had any hope of passing that class maybe I'd be more into it but since my teacher didn't accept my 2nd assignment I will most likely end up failing. See, I was about to post the damn thing online and my computer froze and bitch wouldn't take it 5 minutes late. "OOoh if you do that in the real world you'd get fired." Seeing that my first two grades were good...in the REAL world if I were doing well from the get go and handed in something 5 minutes late my guess is they'd give me a second chance. Just saying. People aren't THAT heartless. (except her!)

Anyway, one thing I have learned from my internship so far GPAs are not that important afterall. With all my involvement on campus GPA wasn't even a question. I'm sure for some majors they consider it but with communication you don't learn it by sitting in class you learn it through experience.

My internship started today and it was Uh-mazing.  I was nervous of course but everyone was around my age which is cool. Its a good place to start. I didn't have to make coffee haha. I did though, have to answer the phone, and since I was nervous I kept messing up. They probably thought I was retarded but I'll get it next time. Let me explain to you what this place is. Its called On That Note Entertainment and its located in Parsippany. They are in charge of booking bands, managing bands, and booking/managing other forms of entertainment as well. It seems like such an exciting industry to be in and I can't wait to get the ef out of school and start working somewhere like that for real. I eveventually get to go to shows with them to scout bands and just support already signed bands. I'm excited to get back there an actually be a decent worker and not act like an ass cause I'm hella nervous. The guy that runs it is only 26(?) and he already has this successful business. Its pretty motivating to see someone that age who has already started their own business and actually made it work.

Waitressing is nice too actually. Im making beaucoup bucks but I need to stop spending it right away.

I think I spelt "beaucoup" wrong which reminds me I need to be studying for french. If I can't pass those placement exams I'm never gonna graduate. Fucking language requirements.

Good news! I got an internship! Look at me growing up!

My court case got dismissed which we were all pretty pleased about to say the least. I don't think he's allowed to re-trial after dismissing the case, but I'm also not a lawyer so I'm not sure. I'm happy but at the same time upset that I stayed down at school for that. As lame as it sounds that I'm still obsessing over my cat, if I didn't have to stay for that trial, I could have been home before he died. It breaks my heart. I told my dad I want to sue Tim for pain and suffering...but I figured getting sued by a entire city is enough karma for one person.

Anyway, I got out of court around 2:05 when it started at 2 so parents told me to start driving tonight. They have this thing about me driving straight through. So here I am, at a Super 8 motel. Waste of there money but to be honest its sort of relaxing. I'm not home, not at school, kind of in the middle with nothing to bother me. Its like a little vacation. Hah, in Fredricksburg VA. 

So I'll be home tomorrow probably around 3pm. I have a lot of homework that I completely forgot about that is due on Sunday that I need to do when I get back. Boo to that. My bedroom for the summer will be the future dining room....thats kind of sad but my REAL room should be done by Christmas. I think my dad has been saying that since I got into college. Whatever. 

Its going to be nice at home. I'm working at Boegy's with my mom and sister so I should be making a good chunk of change while having some quality time with the fam. I have an interview for an internship  that I'm way nervous about. It's at this record label in parsippany soo if I get it that should be fun. I've been running answers to interview questions through my head on the ride up haha.

I'm too excited to see everyone that I have missed so much but I'll miss my buds from NC too. Just a random fact.

Anyway, time for sleep 4 more hours of driving tomorrow. Hopefully it won't be raining again...I thought I was going to get struck by lightening earlier tonight...but yeah thats just me thinking crazy. And hey, if your up for going to the Jersey Shore for a day tomorrow call me because I'll be driving right past it and I'm craving some sun. I might just go anyway haha.